Something Like You

To my readers: I realize that I haven't posted in awhile so this is a poem I wrote last year about my Christian Journey.  Hopefully this can hold you all off for a little while!! XOXO and thanks for reading!

Something Like You

 I was once a lost girl.
 I wore a disguise on my face.
 Walked through the world in camouflage
 I faked my way through life.
 
 I never had enough.
 Enough of anything;
 Time, attention, influences.
 Enough of all the things I wanted.
 
 I always thought there was something more.
 Something out there;
 Something intangible, irreplaceable, immortal.
 Something like: You.
 
 It happened in a second.
 Quick as a blink of an eye.
 Faster than the furious,
 But it was closer than expected.
 
 Suddenly, I was found.
 I wasn’t looking, I  had no idea.
 But You brought me in to being.
 My mask came down.
 
 You breathed new breath into me.
 You gave me a new reason for life.
 I still want more;
 More of Your love and spirit.
 
 I now know: my purpose,
 My reason for being on this Earth,
 The gifts that you have given me,
 And the graciousness of your love.
 
 I am full of new life, new spirit.
 I have a renewal of my heart, body, soul, and mind;
 A fullness that only you can give me.
 Your love has completed me.

Sozo...... :)

Last week I decided to dig deeper into my spirituality and complete a Sozo Prayer session with two wonderful ladies from Hub City Vineyard. Let me start by explaining what exactly Sozo is.

WHAT IS SOZO?

SOZO is the Greek word translated “saved, healed, and delivered.” Sozo ministry is a unique inner healing and deliverance ministry aimed to get to the root of things hindering your personal connection with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. With a healed connection, you can walk in the destiny to which you have been called.

A Sozo session is a time for the Sozo team to sit down with you and with the help of the Holy Spirit walk you through the process of freedom and wholeness. Sozo is not a counseling session but a time of interacting with Father, Son and Holy Spirit for wholeness and pursuing of your destiny.

(This excerpt was found on http://bethelsozo.com/, please go to this website for more information on Sozo ministries)

 

The day of my Sozo session I experienced a mix of emotions. I had previously spoken to a few people that have experienced Sozo for themselves. They told me about how much closer they felt to God, how it was very deep and emotional, and how they took so much away from their session. So of course, leading up to that day I was nervous because I didn't know what to expect from my Sozo. As the time was getting nearer I was filled with anticipation! I started to get a little nervous but it was the kind of nervous/excited feeling that you get on your wedding day.

 

And then it began....

 

At the beginning of my session, they explained what was going to happen and how it works. I was asked how I hear from God. I informed them that I wouldn't know because I don't understand the difference between my conscious, the voices in my head, or God!! They explained that it is kind of like your gut. They asked me a series of questions breaking it down into different categories, digging deeper into some things and moving forward with others. To answer the questions I was suppose to just say the first thing that came to me whether it be a picture, a word, or actual spoken words to me.

 

Apparently, God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit communicate with me through visual images. I found out a lot about my relationship with them is very similar to my relationship with my earthly family. We also talked about the four doors: fear, hatred, the occult and sexual sin. I was shocked at how honest I was, I didn't even have to think about my responses, the words just came out. I was given a lot of images to ponder on. Some of them were funny like an imagine of me with duct tape over my mouth (to remind me that if I can't say anything nice don't say anything at all), I received images of me in a "bubble" protected from the world (shielding me from the devil),and also one of  me wearing a tiara standing next to a huge chair (explaining to me that I am the daughter of the Lord, I am his princess). I was given the word "Control" when asked about my fears. I was told that I don't always need to control everything, every one, and every situation around me. I need to just let some things take care of themselves. This is going to be very hard for me to do, but in time I will overcome my fear.

I found myself being incredibly honest about my past, revealing things about my past including sexual sins that I have committed and many things that I believed in that I never would have if I would have believed in God, his Son, and the Holy Spirit. When I asked them where they were during all my times of struggle, they all told me "I was here.”  I know this now that they were with me through all of my struggles but I never asked for them, I never turned to them and I didn’t give it all to God. 

 

 During the Sozo, I said many prayers of forgiveness:  Forgiveness of myself, forgiveness of others, and forgiveness from God. After two hours of intense prayer, my Sozo was complete. In the past two years, I have developed such a strong relationship with God and through my Sozo I discovered that He realized this as well. I left there feeling satisfied and complete. I know that to continue my inner healing and my relationship with Father God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, I need to follow through with specific commitments that I have made to them. This has just been a brief description of my Sozo experience, like I said; my session was two hours long. I strongly suggest that everyone do this, no matter how strong or weak your relationship is with God!

 

Something to think about…

 

In Ephesians (Chapter 4:17-32) Paul writes: 

 17-19And so I insist—and God backs me up on this—that there be no going along with the crowd, the empty-headed, mindless crowd. They’ve refused for so long to deal with God that they’ve lost touch not only with God but with reality itself. They can’t think straight anymore. Feeling no pain, they let themselves go in sexual obsession, addicted to every sort of perversion.

20-24But that’s no life for you. You learned Christ! My assumption is that you have paid careful attention to him, been well instructed in the truth precisely as we have it in Jesus. Since, then, we do not have the excuse of ignorance, everything—and I do mean everything—connected with that old way of life has to go. It’s rotten through and through. Get rid of it! And then take on an entirely new way of life—a God-fashioned life, a life renewed from the inside and working itself into your conduct as God accurately reproduces his character in you.

25What this adds up to, then, is this: no more lies, no more pretense. Tell your neighbor the truth. In Christ’s body we’re all connected to each other, after all. When you lie to others, you end up lying to yourself.

26-27Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don’t use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don’t stay angry. Don’t go to bed angry. Don’t give the Devil that kind of foothold in your life.

28Did you use to make ends meet by stealing? Well, no more! Get an honest job so that you can help others who can’t work.

29Watch the way you talk. Let nothing foul or dirty come out of your mouth. Say only what helps, each word a gift.

30Don’t grieve God. Don’t break his heart. His Holy Spirit, moving and breathing in you, is the most intimate part of your life, making you fit for himself. Don’t take such a gift for granted.

31-32Make a clean break with all cutting, backbiting, profane talk. Be gentle with one another, sensitive. Forgive one another as quickly and thoroughly as God in Christ forgave you.